So life lately... Hmmm.. I don't even really know what to say. Or how to put so many weeks of never ending frustration and pain into words....

So it all started with throwing up randomly maybe once or twice a week back in August. Didn't exactly make sense but it didn't bother my life too much so I thought nothing of it. It went from that to two days of being stuck in bed with crazy bad nausea and stomach pain.

That eventually went from two days to three and now here we are with every single day of the week. My stomach burns and hurts but the worst of all is definitely the nausea. Plus moving around usually makes it worse.

As I write this I'm desperately hoping that the potato salad I just ate (which I shouldn't have eaten in the first place because I'm not allowed to have potatoes anymore) decides to stay down because if it doesn't that will be literally be the only thing I have eaten all day.

(My doctor put me on a low carb diet so no tubers, sugar, wheat, anything highly processed or artificial sweeteners.)

Life right now is tons of getting ready for stuff and then curling up into bed because I realize I won't be able to make it outside of the house. Yes, here are days that I feel fine but lately,  those days are becoming more rare and that scares me. A lot.

Two sets of bloodwork and an ultrasound has come back perfectly normal... However this week I have an upper endoscopy and a HIDA scan. But I'm scared. Scared that those will come back normal too and I'll be back to square one.

I feel kind of hopeless in a lot of ways. It's not exactly something you can take some meds, go to work and push through it. This is never ending. So yeah, I'm struggling. It's just so hard to keep on top of work and a service mission when my body is going haywire.

 I don't exactly know what I'm even trying to accomplish by writing this blogpost. However thought all of you should know whats going on. I will try to give frequent updates this week. Thanks for reading this.
-Shelbie